I’m a wife, a mama & a country girl. We have a herd of horses and both my husband and I have worked professionally in the equine world for years. When I became a mom, I didn’t know it would also inspire a career change but here I am!

I always knew I wanted to be a mom. When asked in Sunday school what I wanted to be when I grew up “a mom” was my answer. 

It happened a little faster than I anticipated with a positive pregnancy test just days after returning from my honeymoon.  we were shocked… but at peace, and then thrilled. 

My pregnancy was healthy, and uneventful, but my labor and delivery was not. All in all it was 59hrs of labor and 2 hours of pushing. During that time my care was unexpectedly dropped by my provider and I ended up having my baby delivered by people I didn’t know and in a way I didn’t want. This was 2020, when hospital restrictions were high and my husband was the only one allowed with me. It was quite frankly a very rough start to motherhood. But, God is good and there is healing.

I always hesitate how much of my story I want to share because it’s a lot. For now what I want to say is this — it’s okay to grieve the loss of the birth you didn’t get. “Healthy mom & healthy baby” is absolutely cause for gratitude… but you also don’t have to dismiss your grief. Acknowledging it (when you’re ready) is healthy, and I think allowing yourself to grieve it is necessary in order to truly heal.

My daughter was born with a severe tongue and lip tie that required a revision at only 3 days old in order for her to successfully consume milk.

Those first few nights were rough because she couldn’t properly latch for milk. I remember when someone asked me how I was sleeping and I said “I’m not”. Which was partially true.

It wasn’t until I was really given the encouragement I needed to follow my instincts that I admitted, when sleep was happening, it was with my daughter right next to me in bed.

I’ve been passionate about mother’s instincts since even before I was a mom.

Becoming a mama myself only increased that passion to a next level. 

There are so many areas in our society that cause moms to doubt their ability and their instincts. From telling moms they have to lay on their back to give birth rather than listening to their body, to pushing formula from day one even if a mom wants to breastfeed, to telling moms they have to be back at work AND ready for sex in 6 weeks, telling moms not to sleep with their babies and not to nurse them to sleep either… so many things in our society work against the mother’s instincts! 

I finally realized that I was being called to do something about it. To support the moms around me at another level! So, I became a Baby Led Sleep and Wellbeing specialist. The knowledge I’ve gained + tools and experts I have access to has prepared me to be the best help to the mamas around me! 

Find your village, mama. You are strong, capable, and called for this job! You’re doing amazing. But don’t do it alone  you were built for community.